The Epiphany.

So, I realized today, that video games can bring people in horrible moods into happy moods. I saw two people one recent friend, who i don't know to well, and one friend I've known for a while, and love to death, both in terrible moods. They played some video games, which lead to pool, which led to smiles. Believe it or not, as much of a prick and insensitive bastard as I may be, I live to see smiles from my friends. Here's a secret, for christmas,what I really wanted most of all was to be able to have my old life back again, a father and mother who got along, a father who was in a clean bill of health, a sister who just had fun, friends who never failed to be there, the three musketeers, My roomate, the floormates down the hall, jedi and ethiopia, nick and pat, and of course, my family. I then realized, who the hell cares. This is my life, its not that bad, and shit happens. Dads getting much batter, parents are still together, dougs here, mikis here, nick and pat aren't that far away, the family....well thats shot to hell, but it doesn't matter to me. But most of all, Everyone smiled on christmas, and everyone in my house has been smiling a lot more. Smile smile smile. My epiphany was the sole fact of finding the courage to say "fuck it", and let life go on. As I write this I think of midias(RT), who more than anything else needs warm wishes for this new years, and after all, he deserves it, doesn't everyone? The man will soon be able to say "fuck it", but until he does, he's only human. Please, just smile.
Going internet silent as of 3:26am December 31st, 2005. I'll see you next year.
Fankle

"And I think to myself, what a wonderful world." -Mr. L. Armstrong.